I’ts been shamefully long since I updated this blog. Time has not stood still, neither have I. So this post is one of my last posts in England for now.
Although in constant thought about my writing and the assignment, no words have actually hit paper. But they will. Worlds will collide. All in this entry to end all entries. On this, the day of days I’m feeling confident, but insecure about my writing. Reasons for this are of course the mellowed out holidays that leave much room, but little space to write. The previous assignment has also put me back a little. Let’s look at that first.
The assignment went all right. The story was weak, but in a good way. Leaving ample opportunity for me to reflect, analyse and best of all: Improve. The story did make me feel one thing in particular: Angry. Angry at the fact that I know I can do better, but just roll up my sleeve to do so. Everything is rushed, and in this pressurized environment I feel comfortably at home. I thrive under pressure, but is depletes me. I know therefore that if I would have forced myself, the story would have been better, much better.
The document I handed in was a reflection of my state of mind at the time: Unfocussed, playful and irresponsible. Where usually I know to read and re-read the final work, in this case I didn’t. Leaving the final version pot marked with grammatical errors, spelling mistakes and stylistic faults. It wasn’t my work, as I wasn’t completely me at the time.
All this makes me mad at myself. I’ve always known myself the best and I understand the boundaries of my own mind. I know my capabilities as a promising writer of fantasy fiction. Walking around like a story brooding ground. But none of that came out in the assignment. So it’s time now. Time to show you all that I can do it. That I will do it. I need to do it to prove myself wrong once again: I’m not weak
Spring brings with it a chilly western wind that breaks sometimes revealing the suns full potential. Rays brush my face, leaving a warm glow in its ultraviolet aftermath. It’s said that time is connected to these rays and the way we experience time is related to the frequency with which our brain can read the rays. Flies and other insects have a more rapid reading frequency, which makes the experience of time a slower one. One of the main reasons why you often enough fail to swat the fly. You can experience this yourself daily, by yawning while listening to music. Yawning delivers a large quantity of oxygen to the brain, changing its reading frequency slightly and this causes the pitch of the music to change slightly. But that’s as far as we humans can actually go today. This wasn’t always the case however. There was a time where this ability was practiced and studied among the people.
Nice little framework for a story, thanks for listening.
But that was just a warm up for the main events. My brain is bubbling with characters, plots and images. Recently I’ve been exposed to a number of characters that could be very useful in my stories. And that has become quite a problem. How do I keep the story in my head under control as the characters develop around me? Interesting question I know. No answer as of yet due to lack of experience. But then again, that’s the fun part of this whole experience: Learning.